Mom i had enough of all this pain i have to hold all this while...

i can't bear holding it by myself,
but becoz i love you and i dont want to put more problems to ur weighted thoughts, that i have to keep everything to myself for many years with me...

i wonder what will really happen to me if u have to go one day...

ur the light that lead me to the right path and becoz of ur strength that makes me stronger each day...

and if not becoz of u guiding me and having this hard life since young with u, i dont think i'll be the man i am today...

i may smile, laugh out loud, be the joker around my friends...

but still i've to keep this feelings that no one will knows inside me...

i'm sorry...